Saturday, April 22, 2006

Raining Thoughts

It is raining. No. It has been raining and the rain is silently receding now. Sitting inside my room, I could feel the chilliness brought in by the cold breeze that was playing in the rain all this while and then intruded into my room through the semi opened window. I felt jealous of that breeze because I too wanted to play in the rain but I was not able to do that. Suddenly the breeze gave way to a pleasant wind which brought a thousand tiny droplets of cold water along with it. They fell all over me. I felt a quiver of excitement run through out my body, tickling each and every muscle on its way; all in the flash of a second. I felt the iciness spreading my entire body. Man, being in such a situation is a delight. I closed my eyes.

When I opened my eyes, I saw a shining droplet of water precariously clinging on the tip of a gleaming green leaf. The droplet was about to fall. I looked at myself. Omg! I have turned into a child. The old, small and naughty Jithu! The rain has just stopped and I ran outside my house shattering the muddy water on my way. I went near that dangling water droplet. I wanted to stop the droplet from falling down because it was so beautiful when it was hanging there. I was amazed by the way with which I could see the entire world in it. I doubted whether a wind is on its way to defeat the water droplet from its efforts. I suspected whether my breath would move the leaf thereby making the droplet fall down. I slowly placed my hand beneath the water droplet to hold it if it falls down. Suddenly a wind came from somewhere. It moved the leaf and the droplet lost its grip. It fell on my little index finger. It was no longer beautiful.

Meanwhile I heard my amma calling me inside. She told me that she has made black tea for me. My favorite tapioca fry was also there, she said. It’s great to have this combo when it’s raining. A cup of hot black tea and crispy chips! I forgot about that little water droplet on my finger and ran back into my house. I took the cup of black tea and the small bowl of tapioca fry to the verandah. In between I took some extra tapioca fry from my father’s share and put it in my bowl. I used to do something when it rained outside. I used to take a bed sheet and cover the chair on our verandah with it. That was my instant toy house and I soon made one; a house of my own! It felt great to be inside the coziness of my toy house when it rains. I crawled into my newly constructed house, into the small area between the bed sheet and the seat, with my black tea and the fries. The window or small opening of my toy house opened to the courtyard. Suddenly there started another downpour. I was inside my little house drinking steaming black tea, eating chips and enjoying the rains. There would be a thousand water droplets in each of the leaves now and a thousand beautiful worlds displayed in them, I thought. It made me happy.

Suddenly there was another wind which again brought in water droplets with it. The droplets were so big that they fell right on my face with a lot more power. And it made me open my eyes. The little Jithu disappeared. Hmm... That was a nice reverie. And I felt so melancholic. I know that those moments are gone. They won’t come back again. I am going to be in an office in a few days. I will be in a new city. I hope there would be rains there and there would be leaves to hold water droplets and show me that innocent world in it. I’m not so sure about that. I gasped it off. I looked at the water droplet which I saw hanging on the leaf a while ago. It was no longer there...


24 comments:

venus said...

looks like you are getting nostalgic, with anxiety of unknown.. I can totally ampathize with you. It's not gonna last for very long, you will forget in few days you'll start your new job that you ever felt like this, you will still be as sensitive as you are today.. the basic nature of a person does not change however highs he reaches... there will be more rain, with new memories in rain, with my same blogger friend Jithu :)
Wish you more rains and more memorable memories for you in the new place..

Bombay Dosti said...

In the first paragraph, you took me to the scenes in THoovanathumbikal, you know where it always rains whenver he thinks about her.... and then you took me to your childlike times...and then you get me to your cubicle ...
Pinne mazha.... dunno if its rain that gave beauty to your words or vice versa...

Immigrant in Canada said...

i used to have kattan kappi with ghee and fried tapioca..even now when it rains here ( the rain in vancouver is suffering from lack of energy, no thunder...no lightning nothing!!) i yearn to go back to chengannur..to play with the yam leaf..see how the water droplets dance when you move the leaf..

Geo said...

Nee oru puli thanne... iththavanathe pulitzer prize ninakku thanne...

btw, u r tagged :_D

MadV said...

Hmmm... Rainy days are awesome. Nature looks fresh after rain. And so does our mind. Even with out rain posts like this refreshes our mind :-).

silverine said...

It rains in Bangalore too and you will enjoy it as we have lots of trees here. Nothing like sitting on the verandah having Tea and watching the mersmrising rain. The holidays have bought out the story teller in you again :) Lovely post.

quills said...
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quills said...

Fried Tapioca and tea. Lovely! Although I prefer my coffee with milk. :)

Another beautiful post! I could really picture the rain falling, a little boy sitting on a verandah and trying to catch the raindrops. You write so well that it is so easy to picture it.

Good luck Jithu with your new job.
I am sure you are going to really love your new city and life.:)

Jithu said...

> venus
hmm. not exactly, coz this is not the first time that i'm leaving my house for a job. btw it did rain that day :-) summer showers it was. and it was too good to be in such a climate. bt as u said, 'nothing last for ever, even colden November (Summer) Rain' :-) thx for the wishes..

> bombay dosti
hey thts an awesome flick. another classic frm padmarajan.. anyways it was raining outside when i wrote that. :-) btw who told u to follow me to these places? :p

> immigrant in canada
i knw that. i read that in ur blog. kattan with ghee and tapioca eeh.. btw maryadakku rain cheytha pore? thunder lightining ellam veno? though i hv to agree that ithokke undenkile oru rasam ulloo.. :-) yeah the water drop caught in an elephant yam leaf and its endeavors to escape is a feast to the eyes.. lemme go see that nw itself :p

> geo
pulitzer prize ennu paranju enne pattikkan nokkiya vevaram ariyum payale. thalle.. kalippukalu theeranillalla.. pinne aa avasaanam ezhuthiyirunna sentence njan vaayichu ketta..

> madv
is it not raining at ur place? the summer rain? yes, its so refreshing, for the nature and for our minds. :-)

> silverine
hmm good to know that.. now you stop 'sitting on the verandah having Tea and watching the mersmrising rain' and get back to ur work. :p hmm.. the holidays, its so very boring. trying hard to kill time :-(

> quills
once try black tea when it rains :-) btw thnx for ur wishes. lets see..

Invincible said...

i m feeling so unlucky now, it didnt rain in Pune :((

You put those into words so well. Nostalgic melancholy :)

good luck for ur new job.
It's in des or abraod ?

malinee said...

Hi Jithu,

Rains and melancholy has a strange connection...your post beautifully captures both!!

All the best for the new job!!

:DD

Immigrant in Canada said...

athe.. ee mazhaa ennokke parayunnathinu oru feeling venam.. eviduthe mazha ellam dietingil ananna thonnunne.. Vishmichu vishamicha peyunnathu..
Enikku kushumbu varunnudu...avide enjoy cheyunnathorthittu..Thottil vellam undo? Koithu kazhinjo?
Sarah

Thanu said...

It s been reaining here like crazy over the last month and a half. I am ready for some sun.

quills said...

Hmm..I think I will. :) And then I shall let you know.

Rain rain, pls co-operate. :)It was supposed to rain today, but the sun has actually emerged from behind the clouds.

MC said...

ahh..tapioca chips..lovely..i love to drive when its raining..sitting in the balcony is so nice too, especially if you can have some of the rain sprayed onto you by the wind :) i think with rain comes a feeling of calm and purity.

MC said...

i forgot to add..the above holds good only if your locality isnt getting flooded!! :)

Jithu said...

> invinci
oh. i guess u hv to wait till the monsoons. or does it rain there during summer? the sporadic summer showers? thnx for ur wishes man, its both des & abroad.. :-)

> malinee
relation, definitely. and thank u very much fr ur wishes.. :-)

> immigrant in canada
orappalle feeling venam.. btw did u advice the rain there some diet plans? i really doubt that u know. thottil vellam undu. but njan ivide kaalil plaster okke ittu strong aayi irikkunnathu kaaranam purathu irangan vayya :-( koythu ivide illa. cos hardly someone grows paddy here. ellam vegetables aanu.. so :-)

> thanu
ha ha.. yeah i knw. too much of rain is also not good. lets hope u get to see some sun shine soon.

> quills
its my pleasure mam.. :-) oh no. thanu doesnt want rain and u want that nw. hmm i think u ppl shud decide that among urselves.. :-)

> mind curry
thts so true! its good to sit watching rain and doing nothing. seems u've experienced some floods lately. the bangalore one?

pophabhi said...

Nicely written, Jithu. Simulation of a day at home :). Congrats, and welcome to Bangalore - I am sure that you will get enough of rain here. But do enjoy 'Naatile VenalMazha' now, coz the rain here never relishes you so much. The raindrops are never as sweet as they are at home.

tangy said...

i simply loved it...i was so busy dat these am not gettin' time to chck ur posts...so i took a print of this and read it on my way back home...n truly its amazingly written!

W-Bix said...

:-) i sort of connect to the rain in a sort of similar way :) nice post

Jithu said...

>pophabhi
thnx yaar. btw the day i landed here, it started raining. and for the last one week u know hw it was here in the evenings. bt as u said, they are not sweet as it is at keralam :-)

> tangy
thnx mam! i think i am privileged to hear that frm u, really.

> wbix
hey nice to know that :-)

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